I am so unfaithful to my little blog. I just never know what to say.
Anyway, there is a song that has really been touching my heart lately. The lyrics find specific meaning in my life as I can very much relate to them.
“The pathway is broken, and the signs are unclear… and I don’t know the reason why you brought me here. But just because You love me the way that You do, I will go through the valley if You want me to.”
I struggle daily with the fact that I’m not sure what I’m going to do with my life. The uncertainty clouds mind daily. I see all of my friends picking out colleges and deciding what they want to major in, while I am anxiously awaiting direction for my own life. I don’t know why He brought me to the place I am now, but I’ve decided to surrender it to Him even if it means struggling through some doubt and uncertainty. “Now I'm not who I was when I took my first step, and I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet. So if all of these trials bring me closer to You, I will go through the fire if You want me to.”
I know that I am on a journey. In the past few years, my eyes have been opened to a new way of life; a new way of love. I look in the mirror and recognize some parts of who I used to be, but I also see that there are new parts being cultivated every day. I know He has been faithful in directing these changes in me, and I know He will continue to guide my steps in the way that pleases Him, even if it means laying down my flesh. He’s still working on me and in me, and I cling to that sweet truth. This process of refining is not comfortable, and challenges come along often. However, I know that I lean into Him during these trials, and in turn become closer to Him. The pain is so worth it when I find myself growing closer to Him. “It may not be the way I would have chosen when you lead me through a world that's not my own, but You never said it would be easy. You only said I'll never go alone.”
I am in this world, but I know that I am not of this world. Along the pilgrimage of my time on earth, I know that adversity will rise against me. It will not be easy, and has not been easy so far. Above all the chaos of this life, I see my God reaching down from Heaven, offering His hand to help me through this affliction. I will never be alone as long as I am His. “So when the whole world turns against me, and I'm all by myself, and I can't hear You answer my cries for help… I'll remember the suffering Your love put You through, and I will go through the valley if You want me to.”
When I am persecuted by the people that I love, and I feel abandoned… When I cry out to God and I don’t hear Him answer my pleas… I will remember how He suffered on the cross for me. He loved me so much that He went through immense pain. If He did this for me, then I choose to persevere through hardships.“When I cross over Jordan, I’m gonna sing, Gonna shout. I’m gonna look into Your eyes and see You never let me down. So take me on the pathway that leads me home to You, and I will walk through the valley if you want me to.”
When I finally make it to Heaven, I will dance in delight. I will look into His eyes and know that He never left me. He never abandoned me, and He never failed me. I know the way I need to travel on is narrow, and it will not be simple, but it will lead me home to Him in the end. So I will walk through the valley, if He needs me to.
